So I think the greatest thing that could happen to me now was for me to get cancer. I dont want attention or pity, I just want to die. But not die in the traditional sense. Like getting really fat so I could lose weight to re-invent myself. Reassurance, justification. Just an actual problem that I can fix without major surgery. If I was really really fat I would work out and exercise and what not or I wouldnt be re-inventing myself, I would be paying for my problems (fat) to go away. Believe me, I'm already paying for them, and IM BROKE. You dont get it because I dont quite understand it...

On other notes... I have found my superpower, if you could call it that, I can think the same obvious thoughts as other people at the same time they do. I think I was born with it. Its better then knowing when phones are going to ring right before they do. Rubber smells bad when you burn it.

If everything is made to use something and be used by something, whats my purpose?

just so you know... I dont have cancer, I'm not going to die, and I may or may not be fat. Dont ask me about it.

I hate 'figures of speech'...

What it all boils down to is if it aint broke dont fix it. Umm... thats all well and good but sometimes mine sparks and makes this LOUD buzzing noise, it still works and does what it was MADE for but I dont think those things are suppose to happen. So do I fix it?